I feel pretty disconnected. Like someone cut the telephone wire or the bill wasn’t paid. I’m steady talking into the muted phone as if what I’m doing is really making any sense.
I did something I shouldn’t have done and feel so ashamed. I shy away because I don’t want to face up to the wrath of disobedience. My head hangs low, my eyes closed tight.
I thought I was making progress only to fall three steps back. Now I’m scared to leave myself vulnerable for that kind of disappointment.
The punishment is shame.
Today at service Pastor said:
Don’t think because you have sinned your relationship can’t be saved. Regardless of what you’ve done , in spite of yourself.. God Loves you. Confess your sins, say you’re sorry — you will be forgiven.
A prayer from the heart that is honest and most vulnerable. There is no judgement but a hope of dialogue.
It’s time to confess and welcome the warmth of forgiveness. To mend what has been broken. To step into the light away from the shadow. To receive a hug only The Father can give. For my tears to be wiped away leaving only streaks of faith.
Confessing takes bravery. Forgiveness renews strength.